In a world of individualism......... , 2006-03-10 , 2:45 a.m.
It has been a very long time since I last updated with anything decent. Somehow I'm the least inspired or even urged to blog about anything. That urge seemed to have died down pathetically and now, it feels like there's no need to update what-so-ever anymore. I believe the one simple reason to all this is...
I think there's no one reading these shit anymore.
It's pathetically driven by nothing, and the pitiful desire to know that no one ever gives adamn to read symbolises the needless for this blog to co-exist in my life. Despite being so very honest in my behaviour lately, I sensed the sourness in the air and the deception yet again behind one's teeth of honey and sugar. It may be a parade, fancy parade of truth and lies, but one must open its eyes, widen its senses to tell that, it's moment of folly ceases at the very moment the truth is devoured.
When there's the one man who stands up to toast you of success and wealth, there's always one who sits back and spit in your glory. There's no perfection in life that holds glory in the palm and spiteful jealousy on the back. I am no true honour of man and justice, I too am hypocrtical and at times, skeptical with sarcasm. However there's no desire or force to persuade me to change for the better despite such harmful nature.
The world has opened its arms to the strongest that has ever lived. And the jester laughs in its place at seemingly foolishness amidst the realm of humanity.
I am but nothing in this world. I'm no Lucifer who has been condemned to Hell, nor am I Christ who has forsaken to redeem this world. I am just another being like you in this planet, and wasting oxygen if our lives failed to prove its worth.
I yearn for goals and success, not like nobody does. I desire for freedom and dreams like everyone shares. Yet again the reality forges its smile to enter into yet again stress and convulsions, where beings are made to bend if they stand too tall, being made to stand if they're too short. It's the perfect picture where everyone will smile, despite the pain being put through.
At all ends, comes new birth.
When it really ends like our story does, a new birth is released. But one's ability to make it in the book of history depends on the achievements in beforelife. Not many a success could have won a spot, not as simple as winning a lottery on weekdays and weeknights. It takes guts to brave all storms.
Honestly or despicably? The truth is no one cares.
In the ride of the new horizon, there's not one but many obstacles lying ahead, however there's only one thing that's a truth.
The mind summons the power to think, react, act, and suffer. It's the one weapon everyone is equipped with. And to make the best out of it, it's not only about wit, but also a sense of consciousness.
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left , untold , pain , sorrow
2007*
2007-05-09 -- goodbye . my love
2007-05-01 -- name analysis is bullshit
2007-04-29 -- walkon
2007-04-26 -- SEX can overcome ALL features
2007-03-31 -- vapourise;
2007-03-27 -- mother.creeping-nature
2007-03-10 -- inochi-style
2007-03-01 -- i.Hateyou
2007-02-25 -- SMD*
2007-01-26 -- dadahouse;bugsbunny
2007-01-24 -- [ kharma ]
2007-01-19 -- rawr*~
2007-01-04 -- hijak*
2006*
2006-12-09 -- Ton-ning;overheat.
2006-12-08 -- clear broads.
2006-12-06 -- opium;weed;drugs on high maintanence
2006-12-03 -- UKAT.268bpm
2006-12-02 -- nullified; answers; whatarethey
2006-11-26 -- ohmyhomies...
2006-11-14 -- my heartbeat stopped.
2006-11-12 -- newsflash
2006-11-07 -- The Fool I am
2006-11-03 -- dissipating mirage
2006-11-01 -- piece after piece
2006-09-28 -- i.resolutionary
2006-09-02 -- rapid dysfunctionality
2006-08-17 -- SleepRampage
2006-08-13 -- Blame >>> the fireworks
2006-07-30 -- Tranquility; Over-
2006-07-14 -- Jack in the Box
2006-07-13 -- Journey; Round about the Mulberry
2006-07-13 -- Illusionary; A Flaw in a Dream
2006-07-02 -- Prevail the Ignorance, dance of eternity
2006-06-11 -- Rip Roll Soil
2006-06-10 -- pluie et abri
2006-06-08 -- espoirs.dévorés
2006-05-15 -- The ugly canvas in the beautiful scene.
2006-05-06 -- mère
2006-05-04 -- abayo........
2006-05-02 -- Joke of the Century
2006-03-19 -- dream : legacy : tarot
2006-03-19 -- DMC layout.
2006-03-12 -- The power of Time ---
2006-03-10 -- In a world of individualism.........
2006-02-26 -- ** ningyou-jigoku
2006-01-31 -- *tainted canvas
2006-01-22 -- subete
2006-01-21 -- Ano Basho : Ano Hyaku-Yen Mise
2006-01-21 -- reunion
2005*
2005-12-21 -- i'm the sinner
2005-12-06 -- shopping like a gay
2005-12-04 -- health deteoriation
2005-11-27 -- nonsensical being sick
2005-11-23 -- sumimasen
2005-11-14 -- i am still me.
2005-11-05 -- FYI, i'm not dead yet.
2005-10-13 -- gone, forever.
2005-09-29 -- sweet, bitter vengeance
2005-09-27 -- last call
2005-09-20 -- word of the day :
2005-09-20 -- Neutrino. Neutrino. Bye. Bye.
2005-09-17 -- fuck your silly pea-brains.
2005-09-11 -- me = bandit
2005-09-07 -- betrayed and fuck your ass
2005-08-25 -- a broken toy
2005-08-17 -- imouto...... -chan.
2005-08-10 -- flew
2005-08-05 -- fuck your inside-out happiness
2005-08-04 -- utter speechless
2005-08-02 -- realization.
2005-08-01 -- cafe tarot
2005-07-19 -- rain and cigarettes
2005-07-14 -- life's like that
2005-07-13 -- image : original MAKO
2005-07-08 -- stupid bag
2005-07-05 -- answer, please.
2005-07-01 -- saku : to tear, to split
2005-07-01 -- get lost
2005-06-30 -- frozen
2005-06-29 -- understood-ed
2005-06-25 -- gackt and miyavi
2005-06-23 -- mako and insanity II
2005-06-23 -- mako and insanity I
2005-06-08 -- singapore street festival 2005
2005-05-30 -- first day
2005-05-23 -- boredom
2005-05-18 -- 24 hours template
2005-05-16 -- blood yaoi
2005-05-10 -- die
2005-04-14 -- virus attack
2005-04-07 -- renaissance__
2005-04-02 -- getting better
2005-04-01 -- about today...
2005-03-15 -- st. white valentines'
2005-03-11 -- madness in me
2005-03-08 -- to the bestie in this school
2005-03-03 -- in reflection to you
2005-02-19 -- refresh this page
2005-02-17 -- blinded bishie
2005-02-16 -- temporary measures
2005-02-02 -- my forum
2005-01-31 -- question
2005-01-17 -- procrastinating
2005-01-12 -- bread and baker
2005-01-10 -- shit happens everyday
2005-01-06 -- [quizzes]
2005-01-01 -- best-written
2004*
2004-12-29 -- love and hate
2004-12-27 -- baka matsuri
2004-12-22 -- spam-bot
2004-12-20 -- no idea
2004-12-16 -- home
2004-12-14 -- insanity
2004-12-13 -- missing you......
2004-12-08 -- progress
2004-12-02 -- me against the world
2004-11-29 -- hatred grows every minute every second everyday
2004-11-26 -- sicked
2004-11-08 -- recently.. .....................
2004-10-31 -- passion destruction
2004-10-28 -- showdown
2004-10-25 -- death.
2004-10-20 -- *spams*
2004-10-14 -- ill and bitching
2004-10-08 -- leisure
2004-10-06 -- insomnia
2004-10-01 -- insatiable love insanity
2004-09-27 -- Suck Me.
2004-09-17 -- Quote of the Day.
2004-09-15 -- meaningless
2004-09-11 -- back
2004-08-21 -- raiko, i give you this.
2004-08-20 -- busy
2004-08-14 -- -enkephalin-
2004-08-12 -- bus. i hate buses.
2004-08-10 -- don't hide. it's for you.
2004-08-07 -- friends. guaranteed with assurance.
2004-08-05 -- Today is unusual.
2004-07-26 -- Shudders.
2004-07-22 -- Nemesis... no more?
2004-07-17 -- when it's still fresh in mind...
2004-07-15 -- kuri-kaesu
2004-07-15 -- She's back... to me.
2004-07-12 -- I feel you coming.
2004-07-11 -- -i'm tired-
2004-07-10 -- Once again.. new layout.
2004-07-08 -- Would I have to....?
2004-07-05 -- lousy.whinny.sissy.
2004-07-01 -- Mother Fucker.
2004-06-29 -- Ignorance is Bliss
2004-06-18 -- Adjustments.
2004-06-12 -- A departure.
2004-06-03 -- To those who might concern...
2004-05-23 -- Don't Ask.
2004-05-22 -- Nothing..
2004-05-13 -- Reassurance
2004-04-30 -- Ureshi
2004-04-28 -- This is not me...
2004-04-26 -- Stressed... again....
2004-04-24 -- The Loved will be Remembered.
2004-04-16 -- Suicidal...
2004-04-13 -- The Day Arrives...
2004-04-06 -- Kurai no Sekai.
2004-04-05 -- Utsukushii no Tsuki.
2004-03-30 -- Crashed.
2004-03-23 -- Last Night...
2004-03-16 -- The Predicted Future.
2004-03-12 -- Headache.
2004-03-05 -- Lies.
2004-03-02 -- I Wish.
2004-02-21 -- Tired. And Battered.
2004-02-16 -- ...Kurushin.
2004-02-10 -- Poisoned
2004-02-04 -- KOF Sharings.
2004-02-03 -- Stained Freedom
2004-01-30 -- The Wicked Rose(Archive)
2004-01-20 -- Prayers of the Heart
2004-01-15 -- School sucks.
2004-01-10 -- The Outing
2003*
2003-12-29 -- Smile-less Me.
2003-12-27 -- Heretic Hell.
2003-12-19 -- Dedication
2003-12-15 -- My Simple Life
2003-12-03 -- Worthiness
2003-11-21 -- Behaviours.
2003-11-17 -- Romance(????)
2003-11-10 -- Fury. Angst. Chaos.
2003-11-07 -- Fears.
2003-11-06 -- Tomorrow's Memory.
2003-11-05 -- Blessed Beliefs.
2003-11-01 -- Inexistence.
2003-10-27 -- Selfish isn't it?
2003-10-25 -- ...Her...and her story....
2003-10-22 -- Time, game for the change?
2003-10-21 -- So much so for now.....
2003-10-20 -- Having thoughts about it.....
2003-10-19 -- The Final Stop.........
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